I have made the decision to end my time in Thailand and return back to America. I’ve told a few people this and they want to know why. What happened? What went wrong? And all I can say is nothing. My host family was great. My co-teachers were great. All of my fellow volunteers are amazing. The best I can come up with is: “It’s not you, it’s me.” I just feel like this isn’t a good fit for me and my heart isn’t in the job. This decision was a very hard one to make, but it is right for me.
I am, however, so thankful that I have had this experience. I was able to meet so many amazing people – both Thai and American. I was exposed to a new culture, language, and religion. I got to see a part of the world I have never been in before. I learned so much about myself and I have a renewed appreciation for my family and friends who have supported me throughout this entire experience.
I owe a special thanks to my host family in Nakhon Sawan – especially my host mom. I didn’t truly realize how much I cared about her until I had to say goodbye. It was a tough goodbye and both of us were really upset. But in all situations, my host mom thinks she understands me best....
“I understand why you’re going home Rebecca. It is because your parents want you to have babies.”